good morning heartache
i thought we said goodbye last night - but here you are with the dawn....
oh matty-tilda. my sweet gray kitty. i didn't think it possible for something to worm it's way so deeply into my heart in such a short time.
my head flutters with what if's. what if we didn't let you out [but to deny you the grass and the garden and playing with fluffy jones seems so wrong], what if you had just stayed closer to home, what if the car came 10 seconds later.... and what if we never found you [thank you to whoever put her on the side of the road].
last night D said he dreamed of you :: oh looks there's matilda :: i can only pray that's your way of telling us you are ok. yesterday when i had the vision of you and my grandpa i didn't want to think it was true. but you can only fight what you know {the truth} for so long.
oh gray kitty i will miss you sleeping under my chin :: your joy at my waking up in the morning :: your rubbing into garbo :: your rubbing into the carpet with glee :: your chasing bottlecaps around the house :: so many things i can't possibly list. you were a rare gem my sweet.
you were {and are} my little shadow. i'm so glad that i told you everyday how much i loved you [oddly enough i had a very specific ritual with you to do this]. i had hoped you would be here for my 40th birthday... i can only hope that you are romping with kitty, moe, jake, satchell, pachuco.... i know i will see you in my dreams. i am so grateful that you came into my life. even if it was ever so brief.
friends... i can't imagine posting or reading or doing much of anything on the internet for a while and i didn't want you to think i had disappeared. many of you have become so important to me and so i felt you should know. be well. hug and pet those you love.
oh matty-tilda. my sweet gray kitty. i didn't think it possible for something to worm it's way so deeply into my heart in such a short time.
my head flutters with what if's. what if we didn't let you out [but to deny you the grass and the garden and playing with fluffy jones seems so wrong], what if you had just stayed closer to home, what if the car came 10 seconds later.... and what if we never found you [thank you to whoever put her on the side of the road].
last night D said he dreamed of you :: oh looks there's matilda :: i can only pray that's your way of telling us you are ok. yesterday when i had the vision of you and my grandpa i didn't want to think it was true. but you can only fight what you know {the truth} for so long.
oh gray kitty i will miss you sleeping under my chin :: your joy at my waking up in the morning :: your rubbing into garbo :: your rubbing into the carpet with glee :: your chasing bottlecaps around the house :: so many things i can't possibly list. you were a rare gem my sweet.
you were {and are} my little shadow. i'm so glad that i told you everyday how much i loved you [oddly enough i had a very specific ritual with you to do this]. i had hoped you would be here for my 40th birthday... i can only hope that you are romping with kitty, moe, jake, satchell, pachuco.... i know i will see you in my dreams. i am so grateful that you came into my life. even if it was ever so brief.
friends... i can't imagine posting or reading or doing much of anything on the internet for a while and i didn't want you to think i had disappeared. many of you have become so important to me and so i felt you should know. be well. hug and pet those you love.
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big hugs!
I felt in some weird way that Miss Matilda was a part of our family too. There was so much resemblance and the name Matilda has always held a special place in my heart because of your sweet girl.
I send you all my love and if you need anything please just let me know. A million hugs.
xo and hugs and xo and hugs and xo and ...
Take all the time you need and know that our thoughts are with ya, hun!
thinking of you...sending hugs, xox
OH NO!
i am crying
that's so
horrible!!!
if it weren't
6 am there
i'd call...
i feel
so bad
for not
knowing...
not calling...
xoxoxox
xoxo
xoxo
I'm so, so sorry. Matilda sounded like the sweetest of little grey angels. Take care and much love. xoxo Louise
Tara
Wendy.
I'm thinking of you and hope that the flowers bring a little cheer into a house that needs all the cheer it can get right now.
Much love...
<3
kelly
i am so sorry.
it is such a loss.
lots of love your way.
laura r.
I'm so sad... My Mousse looks very much like your Mathilda, he's 9 years old already, but I can't imagine life without him. I already have to cope with the fact that his doggy-brother is fading away because of a genetic illness. Your sad news left me devastated...Although I'm sure she's in a very nice place now.
a very warm hug from Spain,
Isabel
Find her and call to her in the shadows.
xx
not to make this about "me" but I understand-take your time and take care.
xoxo
A good friend sent me this, hope it will help you :
Rainbow Bridge
Just this side of heaven is a place called Rainbow Bridge.
When an animal dies that has been especially close to someone here, that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge.
There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends so they can run and play together.
There is plenty of food, water and sunshine, and our friends are warm and comfortable.
All the animals who had been ill and old are restored to health and vigor; those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we remember them in our dreams of days and times gone by.
The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing; they each miss someone very special to them, who had to be left behind.
They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance. His bright eyes are intent; His eager body quivers. Suddenly he begins to run from the group, flying over the green grass, his legs carrying him faster and faster.
You have been spotted, and when you and your special friend finally meet, you cling together in joyous reunion, never to be parted again. The happy kisses rain upon your face; your hands again caress the beloved head, and you look once more into the trusting eyes of your pet, so long gone from your life but never absent from your heart.
Then you cross Rainbow Bridge together....
Author unknown...
ā„ Tiff*
this is terrible, i'm so sorry to hear about your loss.
take all the time you need. eat ice cream and read magazines. listen to loud music and lay under a tree. these things usually help me a little bit.
maybe you could make a little shrine to help with the grieving, too.
xo
and i am so sorry - you have lost too many kitties lately.
lots of hugs :)
Hugs to you sweet Lisa
n x
it is 2 yrs since bhu was taken by a car but i feel it all fresh now. the same wonderings we had, but ultimately knowing that he had such pleasure from his freedom.
i'm glad you had each other, even for so short a time, such love.
warm thoughts to you in this sad time. love xox
Take care.
Clara