14 April 2006

lucky foot





can tonka be his own rabbit's foot? i took this photo over a week ago and thought it was funny how much he looked like a rabbit.... or maybe a frog? morran what do you think?

anyway... the other night came home to a tonka whose eyes were quickly shifting from left to right [think marty feldman on speed] and who couldn't tell which way was up.... inner ear infection? most definitely.... well - it got only worse.... yesterday he had to have surgery to remove the disgusting mess of goop that had exploded into his ear/head [sorry for the grusome details]. being a frenchie with bizarre atanomy and a compromised airway surgery is spooky [if it isn't spooky enough on its own]. he hasn't been home for the last 2 nights. i miss the tiny pitter patter of his feet. i miss his insistance to sit on my lap at the most inopportune times.... apparently he is upsidedown in a cage still trying to figure out which way is up. he is supposed to come home tonight.... but there is a bit of a recovery road ahead.

and so yesterday was a day of contrast and confusion [this phrase being stuck in my head from my principles of design lecture]. it was sunny for a WHOLE day for the first time in god knows how long - i could instantly feel my mood shifting because of that. i now firmly believe that s.a.d. [the disorder] is real..... i was at the point where i felt i was going to collapse if there was another day of rain! i finished a website! hurrah! but still have one to go..... and the one to go is one that is giving me a giant giant headache. partially because it's weighted with emotional baggage and thus there is a core part of me that is fighting against it.... and i'm my own client for this one. it's really no fun to be your own client. the internal dialogue can be funny but i feel like i loose clarity.... and then driving home i chose to listen to the ipod instead of NPR.... couldn't handle any news... and the song "a history of lovers" by calexico and iron and wine came on and i almost lost it.... it was like every emotion on both ends of the spectrum hit me full force. i could have laughed, i could have wept. instead i carefully got myself home and ate some dinner. and went to bed early.

so, no photobooth friday or 5 senses for me... no divulging of good mail.... that will have to wait until next week.... please if you have a minute... think good thoughts for my little biscut! have a good weekend...

19 comments:

Abigail said...

Oh Lisa...what a crap few days you have had you poor thing! I hope you can just crawl into bed this weekend, once you have poor wee Tonka home and just all snuggle up together and unwind/get better...

How horrible and all consuming these things can be, so upsetting...but I am sending all my love and thoughts to you both!!! hugs, Xox

lisa said...

oh, my heart goes out to you and sweet tonka. kisses and hugs and love to both of you!!

Ky said...

~*~*~beaming vibes of the better variety your way and tonka's way~*~*~

Shari said...

lisa...sending you a big hug and lots of love. i do hope tonka is better. i know you will be happy to have your baby home. love, shari

stephanie said...

hugs lisa. good well wishes to tonka. more sunny days are ahead, i'm sure.

"a history of lovers" does it to me every time too...

wendy said...

oh lovely lady....wishes for you...and the little tonka guy...if you need to bounce around ideas with a seperate person I am all ears...wishing you much goodness
xoox

two trees said...

lots of love and cozy wishes for a weekend full of snuggles for all!

natalie said...

sending good wishes to poor tonka and a hug for your good self!

Take care

N x

Nicole said...

hey - big hugs to you both and hope he comes home soon. ox

robyn said...

Oh, pet surgery is so stressful and scary. I'm glad he's on his way home soon. Definitely thinking good thoughts for Tonka and for you. Hope he has a speedy recovery!

vegasandvenice said...

Oh sweetie, all of my very very best most healing thoughts are being sent to dear Tonka and you. I hope you will update us as soon as you are able.

All my best and a hundred hugs!

Pat said...

awaiting good news about Tonka's recovery with lots of positive thoughts to you, your hubby, and to the biscuit as well, of course.

abby said...

oh, I am so sorry. I am thinking about your little family and hoping and wishing for the best. In a dream world, I'd sit you guys down, throw a quilt over you, build a fire, give you ten Japanese craft books to look at and make you a pot of tea! I hope this weekend is better for you! Go listen to some more Calexico and rest. Hugs and wishes of better times-abby

anke said...

It seems Tonka - poor baby!- isn't the only one needing good thoughts and wishes...thinking of you and sending soothing and cheering vibes. and sunshine...it seems you need plenty. Constant rain can really get you down and it seems like it will never be nice and warm again. Rest. Get as much light as possible...sunbed maybe? Origins 'Gloom away' eau de toilette is nice too. :) I hope you all have a much much better weekend. Get well...
GIANT hugs&1000 sloppy kisses

Lisa | eots said...

Unfortunately you probably know all to well what little Tonka's head feels like since you just had a rotten sinus infection!! Your poor sweet biscut, [Garbo's neck and your husband's recent bout of the flu], I'm thinking positive healing thoughts for all of you! Push a rain cloud my way and I'll buy the sun a ticket to the west coast. [Guess I'm channeling Billy Joel with that last bit :)]

I'm good to go with "Cannoli" on the 25th and I'm jazzed about your father's suggestion, darnit if I can't remember the third book..."Little Pieces"?

anne said...

{{{Lisa}}} {{{tonka}}} sending you both oodles of love and feel better wishes!!

poppy said...

poor tonka! hoping this is finding the little one knowing which way is up by the time you read this!
gosh! ( if there's any consolation, we are sharing the same weather if not worse well at least colder i'm sure).

eireann said...

oh, oh, feel better soon. and good thoughts for your pup, too.

lisa s said...

THANK YOU EVERYONE - you are all so kind and supportive... i am completely overwhelmed..... much love to all you back!! xoxo [and tonka is giving licks]