24 October 2006
in the fuzz
above is how i see and hear the world at the moment. my ears are so clogged i'm not sure what to do. this sick purgatory is for the birds man. not sick, not well... i wander around in a semi-fog of semi-exhaustion faintly recalling what it's like to hear, breathe, smell, taste normally. [all things i have been taking for granted. lesson learned!]
i'm on that edge. the edge of almost dropping all the balls i am juggling. i have lists with sub-lists and post-its attached. i have my ideal order of things to do and the reality check of how things will get done.
i have deadlines and trips and visitors all happening with-in days of one another. i have art to make, art to pack, art to pick up, art to ship.
sometimes i think being reliable and dependable is also for those birds. but i know i'd feel bad if i didn't do what i said i was gonna. maybe i should go the way of lisa and close the computer except for work stuff [i know that would never stick, but i can contemplate it]
to temper all this wallowing in my own self pity i do have a bit of good news! i was just offered a drawing class at another institution for spring semester. i won't say anything more until i have a contract in my hands, but i'm excited that i most likely won't have to take a break from teaching and that it's one class [so that maybe i can catch up], and that i know i'll have a bit of steady income in the months to come. thank you job gods....
and for your listening pleasure try these two tid bits:
cat power &
neko case both from morning becomes eclectic . neko's is particularly funny as she has a giggle fit at the start of a song....
have a good wednesday - i HAVE to find a good suitcase i can check in that is big enough to hold some art [ gwen - i should have bought that green one!!] and BTW - if you haven't read the comments to the art babble post - there are some really thoughtful responses there.... thank you!