looking for vision

white buddha Originally uploaded by dressform.

this morning i awoke to that chill... soon it will be too cold to dress in the morning without a shower or some heat.... the doggies are staying in bed b/c they have blankets.... as always fall and winter come when they are good and ready!

i also awoke with a start.... there is just too much going on in my head and in my multiple endeavors.... i shouldn't even be typing this for i can feel my list screaming at me, but i'm hoping it will serve as mini-therapy....

i want this photo to embed in my mind for today. i want to embrace the idea of calm, the idea of breath, the idea of smallness [little buddha is only 3 inches tall], the idea of closing your eyes and letting go, the idea that rust [metaphorically] will magically place itself in wonderful and beautiful ways...

i think part of my problem is that i have not had a good studio day [whole day] in far far too long.... thus i am feeling resentful. resent quickly leads to regret... neither of which ultimately does any good. buddha buddha be my guide!!