26 December 2007

mama said there'd be days like this

holiday fog

the above image so reminds me of this painting by one of my all time painting heroes gerhard richter

have you ever had one of those days [weeks, months... spans of times] where you couldn't even think the words "well it can't possibly get any worse" because you knew that it could. and it would. and it does. where minutia of humor become ever so important... where you have to find some other place, thing, person to hold onto. where each step forward, each minute of progress, each phone call that doesn't bring bad news is to be treasured.

these last few days i've spent time thinking, trying not to think, and then reflecting on what it's like to show, hide, respond to, and ignore a roller coaster of emotions. one thought that has entered my mind [yet again] is how remarkable this community and this space is. i have real, special, and true friends all from what happens out on these here internets.... i want to thank everyone who comes here, who comments, who reads, who reflects, and who participates in any way shape or form. i want to thank all of you who have sent emails, packages, cards and the like all through the year and specifically through this season. thank you, really. thank you.

i hope everyone had a good holiday. and that we all have a peaceful and happy new year. and i want to share a song that i heard again the other day and seems just right for this time.... [you may have to click out of your reader to be able to hear it]

16 comments:

matirose said...

nothing is better than johnny cash... wait this is him, right?!
my darlin' girl, i'm sorry about this hard span of time. thank you for expressing it so and there will be blue skies soon.
xoxo
mati

SouleMama said...

oh, yes, johnny cash. beautiful.

I'm thinking of you, sweet Lisa. Hoping you're finding some peace in your days and some quiet in your heart, whatever your troubles may be. xoxo!

wendy said...

no one could say {and not say} more beautifully than you have about life's trials. thinking of you and hope your holidays were peaceful.
{new banner is really beautiful}
xoxo

amy ross said...

Lisa, wishing you all good things. xoAmy

sally said...

Thinking of you. xoxo.

Anonymous said...

Love you, Lisa. Mean it.

Please remember that you always have a place by the sea, a cozy bed and a kitchen with lots of tea and cookies should you ever need it.

xx
b.

Heather said...

Even when you are feeling that way, there's still your work out there in the world, happy and beautiful. The gorgeous pieces you've made in the past and all the things you'll make in the future are like little anchors into some deep layer of rock-like joy that belongs to you.

That's what I think.

Good reminder for myself, too.

Thanks for the beautiful photo and the reminder of Richter. I also adore him.

Sally Rhodes said...

Wow, now I just have to download that song. If you've ever seen Hey Arnold, I'm pretty sure the grandma sang that once to cheer up Arnold. I just recently started reading your blog and I love it! Keep writing, and I hope you feel better soon.

Babelfish said...

So sorry to hear you're going through a roller-coaster of emotions. Thinking of you, I wish words and thoughts from this space can reach out and *hug* where physical hand of friendship isn't possible (your packet arrived today, thank you so much, your friendship means a lot!) xox

andrea (scout) said...

you're in my thoughts, sweet lisa... sending you many hugs from afar... xoxoxo

amisha said...

my sweet friend, i am reaching out through these internets to send you the hug i wish i could give you in person. i am thinking of you. xoxoxo

shari said...

oh lisa. counting down the days til i can give you a hug in person. xox

dandelion said...

so sorry you're feeling this way lisa - i hope 2008 brings you what you want and need - all the best...x

muertoderisa said...

i'm sending you one more giant hug!
i do hope things feel better soon.
i'll keep sending internet hugs until they do.

Abigail said...

I am late to reading, and especially sorry to be late to this sweet Lisa...

So sorry to hear times are tough just now...so beautifully you express that here, your gift for words, and for feeling so deeply is something I am sure adds to the weight at times like this...know we are all thinking of you, and sending lots of love across continents and oceans. xox to you.

Savour your time in Cash-country this week...and take good care of yourself. xX

julie said...

As per usual, Im late over here. I really hope all is ok for you Lisa..Im sending many hugs for a great year with a few less emotional roller coasters my friend xxx