mama said there'd be days like this

the above image so reminds me of this painting by one of my all time painting heroes gerhard richter

have you ever had one of those days [weeks, months... spans of times] where you couldn't even think the words "well it can't possibly get any worse" because you knew that it could. and it would. and it does. where minutia of humor become ever so important... where you have to find some other place, thing, person to hold onto. where each step forward, each minute of progress, each phone call that doesn't bring bad news is to be treasured.

these last few days i've spent time thinking, trying not to think, and then reflecting on what it's like to show, hide, respond to, and ignore a roller coaster of emotions. one thought that has entered my mind [yet again] is how remarkable this community and this space is. i have real, special, and true friends all from what happens out on these here internets.... i want to thank everyone who comes here, who comments, who reads, who reflects, and who participates in any way shape or form. i want to thank all of you who have sent emails, packages, cards and the like all through the year and specifically through this season. thank you, really. thank you.

i hope everyone had a good holiday. and that we all have a peaceful and happy new year. and i want to share a song that i heard again the other day and seems just right for this time.... [you may have to click out of your reader to be able to hear it]