on luck

i know it's been a little quiet over here. quieter than usual even [or maybe that's not true or you don't notice]. i guess the correct statement is that i feel quiet.

i've been thinking a lot about luck. and what it is exactly. and how you feel when it feels like you are dealing with a streak of bad luck. luck seems like this mysterious thing - some outside force that perhaps intellectually we don't believe in. but when the deck starts to feel stacked it's almost easier to think - oh this is just a bad luck spell. i've also been wondering how it can be that both good and bad luck are running simultaneously - like partners in crime. one aspect of life is just going along swimmingly - things are falling into place - while others feel like they are falling apart. of course volumes of philosophy and literature have been devoted to this whole ying/yang idea, and i'm no scholar, but it has been on my mind.

and so i started thinking about what athletes do to change their luck. they cut their hair, they grow a mustache, the switch something up in their routine [or keep wearing the same socks if they are winning]. in my mini attempt to bargain with the universe i pulled out the above horseshoe necklace. i've been wearing it for the last 3 days. i think my luck is improving. [ha].



my husband and i celebrated our anniversary on saturday. actually we kind of avoided celebrating, but he did give me a very good present. he spent about an hour upstairs after asking me for some tissue paper, some red ribbon, an exacto knife and a glue stick. i had no idea what he was up to. then he handed me this box. covered in great labels from cooking cans [he's such a chef].



these were inside.

perfect gift? indeed. i don't talk about D very much on this blog [by his request]. but golly i love him. he sure knows me. one of the above wind up bots goes in a circle which for some reason i am totally infatuated with.

tomorrow i start teaching again.
wish me luck.